For Phil

Will I loose you too like the other men gone
my dear strong giant of love and compassion
I cannot stand the idea of you not being here

You accompanied me to grandpa's funeral
and I felt safe beside your tall strong frame
I felt safe when you are close by protected

How can I tell you all these things now that
that you are fighting for your own life as that
damn cancer is attacking the side of your neck

You may have an appointment in heaven now
but the thought of saying goodbye is
just too much and my heart is so sore

An old seer told me once that he saw
men around me dying and all my life
oh beloved friend of mine not you


I cannot imagine you closing your eyes
before I close mine forever on this world
I cannot imagine the loss of your laughter

Half sleeping to see you weary and tired
from the pain of seeing the forest fall
why you are like a giant tree yourself

Yes a giant cedar that is you dedicated

Dear God in heaven please spare him
please take this cancer away and give
him life like he has never known 

Peace of mind and the courage to fight
for another day to hold all his children
if my heart is breaking  what about theirs

Death that place that calls us one by one
on the top of the mountain and release
all that is of here like the wind to dust

I love you dear Phil as a sister loves a
brother as the earth loves the rain and
sun I love like the sun loves the moon
I need you here for many more days
I need to here till we both grow old