All that I am

 All that I am and have become belongs to me

I open doors all by myself I try hard to be real

I am on an open road and I am traveling to find

The end of my journey and the lessons learned

My heart was sealed when my mother  left me

My whole body shut down then that day forever

My eyes became small my mouth and lips small

My ears shrunk into tiny little flaps invisible

But i could hear the grass growing  listening

Yes they tortured me for years and years fixed

Fixed in me the need and want for forgetting

Now i forget every thing every day every  moment

My name is Moves Fire Woman and I am a warrior

John Brown

  He died on my birthday this sweet  brother in law

  His voice his laughter and his good mirth  remain
 
  Him and my beloved Greg talking about electronics

 My husband loved his older brother and he swore
  that after he died John came to visit in spirit and
 even tuned up our new car a gift from God I am sure
John did not even need an airfare or the  border hassle

My husband has remained quiet this year I know he
Misses Johnny like we miss the birds singing outside
Grief was not unexpected and Greg knew the doctors
Would take him sooner than later Greg let go hard

Their conversation would end with I love you Johnny
I know Johnny loved Greg they shared a passion for
Auto mechanics and they both shared family stories
Both these boys left home left the familiar streets

John went south to the land a alligators and sun shine
Greg went west into the rainforest and black bear dens
The telephone kept them in touch  for years they talked
I miss those days and my husband's laughter and joy