Learning the lessons of this lifetime


You ask what I was afraid to show and
my rib cage slowly opened for you then
but it was empty for my heart was lost
lost in the grief of being abandoned early
No child can ever heal from loss of mother
I never wanted to be tied down or settled
It was my aunties who demanded conformity
said I needed to find a man get married soon
You came along then and you stayed around
we adventured on your motorbike brilliant
you intelligent brilliant minded man how
much you fascinated me you were busy
your eyes were as green a Irish stone
I went along for the ride and it was cool
until we got married and tried that game
it was terrible and I hated being a wife
we grew apart in Canada in the winter
I left you forever with no thought of it

At forty I met another man with blue eyes
and he became my destiny and my pride
we belong together and both our birthdays
add up to nine we are the hermits now each
delighting in the others company and his heart
was broken too about the same time as mine
he is my day and night he is my yin and yang
he is the reason that I came here once again
to find him for he is my purpose and reason
to be of service to him alone and he is me
and we are of the one drop of light left
beloved of all the men I ever met and left
he is the best of them the very best

dear men who loved me for a time forgive
me for breaking your heart if I did that
it is only that my life purpose was to find
this man that was my other half my core
you delighted me but it was surface stuff
not the deep core of meaning that I sought